the way i am now,
is not the same as the way i used to be.

when i was younger,
i always believed that miracle existed.
i'm very naive,
cause i really believed,
that dreaming would help me got a better life.

even until yesterday, i still had a faith in it.
but not now.
not anymore.

i've had enough of it.

there's no such thing like miracle.
like hope.
and dreams.
they're all lies.

i've learnt my lesson.
i can't believe in anybody.
i can't rely on everybody.
even on God.

the only person i can rely on,
is myself.

and that's how life will be for me.
from now on.

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i don't really care what my life would be in the future.
i've thrown my dreams away.
they're just not worth it.
the thing i really care now is,
MYSELF.

and it'll always be like that.
forever.